Dec 2012
In search of what we do not know
desire what we cannot know
she seeks strange desires inflames.
Strange is the only life I’ve known.
When I was young
I thought for sure
Some girl would marry me
And we’d be happy.
I didn’t know
evils in this world,
tasks of aging disease death.
Under duress I vowed
to be good boy
Most of the time I’m scared.
Life is risky. Everyone
is so treacherous
including myself.
I read somewhere
or someone once told me
poets originate from jesters jokers
hawking insults for king's amusement.
Undress
Before I speak another word
Reveal yourself
Will you swear you’re true faithful devoted
never cheated on a boyfriend
promise to marry me
then run back to you ex?
Take your ******* clothes off
please.
Are you terrified yet?
You are an object
to fiddle with, my exquisite
fetish. Sashay round room
sway hips strut. Sit.
Scoot down. Stay.
Bow your head.
Bend your knees.
Closer, show me
your most intimate
soggy swollen dark
down there. Put it
on the table.
Look into my eyes.
Good Girl.
Between you and me
this doesn’t feel like poetry anymore
hawking insults for king's amusement.
actuality I prefer flip-flop
sometimes tied, other times knotting.
Here’s the routine
She gets ******* at me
And I say *******.
Later I realize how much I need her
Beg forgiveness offer anything
Just to crawl back into her arms.
As far as I can tell
You’re all a bunch of tidy
*******. No one wants to own up.
What is the matter with you?
Accidents happen.
You’re not safe here.
Pendulum swings
ditch gets deeper
trusting what we know not
cannot know.
Intelligence is delicate thread
Other times knotting.
Scoot down
A little bit more for me, please.
“If there is no god than what do you believe in?”
“Nothing.”
“How do you pray to nothing?”
“I don’t pray.”
“What do you do when everything turns horrible, and you’re loved ones are endangered?”
“I make plans.”
“What kind of plans?”
“Lunch, dinner.”
“But what if meals are not a consideration? Like if your loved one is anorexic bulimic?”
“I make other plans.”
“What kind of other plans?”
“Plans to make enough money to get free of people like you who ask too many questions.”
“Oh.”
I forgot what I was thinking. Maybe I was thinking about love and loss. It is nearly 3 am. She is long gone. Memory is the biggest **** of them all, lying, betraying, reinventing everything, making passion with anyone, laughing hysterically crying.
desire what we cannot know
she seeks strange desires inflames.
Strange is the only life I’ve known.
When I was young
I thought for sure
Some girl would marry me
And we’d be happy.
I didn’t know
evils in this world,
tasks of aging disease death.
Under duress I vowed
to be good boy
Most of the time I’m scared.
Life is risky. Everyone
is so treacherous
including myself.
I read somewhere
or someone once told me
poets originate from jesters jokers
hawking insults for king's amusement.
Undress
Before I speak another word
Reveal yourself
Will you swear you’re true faithful devoted
never cheated on a boyfriend
promise to marry me
then run back to you ex?
Take your ******* clothes off
please.
Are you terrified yet?
You are an object
to fiddle with, my exquisite
fetish. Sashay round room
sway hips strut. Sit.
Scoot down. Stay.
Bow your head.
Bend your knees.
Closer, show me
your most intimate
soggy swollen dark
down there. Put it
on the table.
Look into my eyes.
Good Girl.
Between you and me
this doesn’t feel like poetry anymore
hawking insults for king's amusement.
actuality I prefer flip-flop
sometimes tied, other times knotting.
Here’s the routine
She gets ******* at me
And I say *******.
Later I realize how much I need her
Beg forgiveness offer anything
Just to crawl back into her arms.
As far as I can tell
You’re all a bunch of tidy
*******. No one wants to own up.
What is the matter with you?
Accidents happen.
You’re not safe here.
Pendulum swings
ditch gets deeper
trusting what we know not
cannot know.
Intelligence is delicate thread
Other times knotting.
Scoot down
A little bit more for me, please.
“If there is no god than what do you believe in?”
“Nothing.”
“How do you pray to nothing?”
“I don’t pray.”
“What do you do when everything turns horrible, and you’re loved ones are endangered?”
“I make plans.”
“What kind of plans?”
“Lunch, dinner.”
“But what if meals are not a consideration? Like if your loved one is anorexic bulimic?”
“I make other plans.”
“What kind of other plans?”
“Plans to make enough money to get free of people like you who ask too many questions.”
“Oh.”
I forgot what I was thinking. Maybe I was thinking about love and loss. It is nearly 3 am. She is long gone. Memory is the biggest **** of them all, lying, betraying, reinventing everything, making passion with anyone, laughing hysterically crying.
