I have to thank you

I have to thank you

I see who I have been

I understand what I was

I look to where I am going

I have to thank you

I feel the pallor of the existence I led

I touch the shell I once inhabited

I have to thank you

I hold no hate

I do breathe anger

I concede to the pain

I pray it is mine alone

I have to thank you

Without this decimated phase

I wouldn’t have pushed through

Without the values earned in losing us

I would never believed in myself like I do now

I have to thank you

You understood what it took for me to flourish

You hated me for it

You craved me for it

I have to thank you

The chess matches I create are false

I always wanted to accept you

I always wanted to be your exception

(if only because you were mine)

I have to thank you

I may never tell you

I may never even lead you on to this

I probably won’t ever give you the respect you are due

I have to thank you

I have to thank you for

For all the things we destroyed even ourselves

We are the difference between knowing and being

We are the people who will forever be….

I have to thank you

I have new existence

I have new purpose

Though I may wane and my ideas shift

Like the sands I asked you to see beauty in

Even if some days I grow despondent

Like the answers you gave me on those days

I have to thank you

Good luck………..

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