I hate him,
I love him,
I don't know how I feel,
sometimes I image what could be real.
At first he was a shadow,
with a simple crush.
I asked him out, and he didn't say no,
And soon being near him gave my heart a rush.
How do I put this in words,
because thinking about him hurts.
He says he doesn't love me,
But my heart won't leave me be,
Within my heart I'm trapped, trying to get out,
But I still love him, without the slightest doubt.
"Ethan, I don't know what to do,
please help me loose these feelings for you."
You broke my heart,
I should of known from the start,
That a silent stranger boy,
would bring me such joy,
just to break me down,
and make me feel like a stupid clown.
"Ethan, I hate you for what you did,
and now I feel like a dumb, lovesick kid."
Please tell me this was all a cruel joke,
because now I can't breath, like my lungs are full of smoke.
you make me feel happy and strong,
but now I don't know what to do,
and I feel each decision is wrong.
and all of this was thanks to you.