She said to just smile
Make the choice to be happy
The glass is half full
And the world is your oyster

How to explain, that I smile through the pain?
How to explain the glass is half full
But I still want to drown in it?
How to explain, the oyster keeps me tied in the dark?

He said it's all in your head
Just get some sunshine
Count your blessings
Just smile & make the choice to be happy

How to explain, my head isn't right?
The imbalance inside it has left me fractured
How to explain, the blessings I count
Make me feel guilty inside, undeserving
Of love, hope and joy?
How to explain, I can't make that choice?

My brain isn't right
The imbalance is there
The pills that I take
They just mask the pain
A bandaid to hide the gaping wound in my brain

I can't make the choice, it isn't easy for me
I smile through the pain
Put the bandaid on each day
Pretend that I'm fine
The trouble I am to those who should care
So I wear the mask that they made
While each day the wound grows

How to explain, it's swallowing me whole?