Do you see
The wonder in this life
Even if it has its pitfalls
Deep and unsavoury
Isn't the feeling in your stomach a sign you're alive?
That racing thrill
That sweet sweet pleasure
The first sip of tea in the morning
The last ray of shine before night
And yet
Despite these wonders
Despite my desires
I cannot find it in me to be happy
I am distracted
My thoughts return only to you
and how we cannot be
I drift in this glorious yet unforgiving sea
Will my love forever be a secret
Will I always clutch my heart in regret
As I think of what could have been
The sights we would have seen
I want to be the shoulder on which you lean

It will never be reality

pity