I feel so distant and different
you made me feel like I mattered and I belonged
but ever since I sat on your bed and pulled at my hair because
your lips touched another girls,
I feel like I belong nowhere

I am floating into nothingness

waiting to feel something

but every time we speak, I know you are still looking at other girls
the way you look at me
and it pushes me further into nothingness because
I had hoped that by still giving you
affection
you would realize what you had lost
and you would only want me
but all of this attention I am getting from you
is mirrored towards other girls that are
nothing like me

you tell me I'm the only one you want
yet you still look for the attention of
other pretty faces

I guess I am just another pretty face

and you know the worst part

I will still probably show you this hoping
you would finally realize that you no longer want the
other
attention

im tired of being second best

I'm tired of fighting for something I shouldn't have to fight for