Give me the bullet The one that was meant for her Let the wind shift and the shooters aim be off Let me feel it- I don't know where it is but I can see the ground rushing to me, Or am I falling?
Give me my last moments A third person movie view of me on the ground and the chaos around Give me the overwhelming feelings of the cold floor Warmblood Stiff hands and pain. the taste of my own blood The smell of it too The view of the floor tiles and how my blood spreads smoothly over it And finally, the sounds of screams and footsteps before it all fades.
Give me the first time my parents know. The way the phone rings hours later They don’t pick up the first time Give me the look on their face Give me tears so frequent and heavy that the earth shakes Give me a play by play of the conversation And then tell me who you will tell next.
Give me the first time my siblings know A phone call to the oldest who lives far away And a proper explanation the younger three as to why they found mommy and daddy crying. Give me a way to tell them who gets what Lava lamp to Jack The ceramic faerie collection o Ada And the stuffed animals to Reid.
Give me time To watch the news reports that ant say my name To look at my friend and how they decide to grieve To read the celebrity sympathies, the ‘Thoughts and prayers are with the family” and the paper signs that rest at my candlelight vigil Give me the time to watch my funeral Poster boards with pictures that stop at 16 A Eulogy given by a stranger because my family can’t do it justice while they cry. A procession of people in black that absorbs the sun Flower tosses and final farewells And a fleeting look at the marble grave the say RIP
Give the fuure About a month or so when the spotlight of American pity and attention swivels to the next thing And give the vision of a man at the library of congress who pulls out the Bill of Rights and writes my name next to thousands of others under a title of “Kids Killed to soon”