Door slams, you’re gone.
Silence becomes my apartment.
With the exception of the rain,  
I only hear my own thoughts.
They’re killing me.  

I don’t know how to be here, in this space.  
I don’t know how to be here, looking you in the face.
Feeling no love, but giving all I have.
I don’t know how to be here.  

No contact or apologies or doorbells.
Are you gone for good?
Maybe it’s better this way.  
We fight almost everyday.
I’m not sure if you love me the way you say you do.

I don’t know how to be here, in this space.
I don’t know how to be here, looking you in the face.
Feeling no love, but giving all I have.
I don’t know how to be here.

My mind is cluttered with memories, good and bad.
My heart- empty and my soul- confused.
You’ve given me happiness and utter heartbreak at the same time.
Whatever you gave, I accepted anxiously.
Until you took it all away from me.  

I don’t know how to be here, I don’t know how to be here.
I don’t want to be here anymore.