It's been how long now since we last spoke/ Can you even remember the last promise you made to me/ If not let me leave you this with this note/ Cause I remember it all despite being outta my mind at the time by the drugs I introduced with open arms to hide the pain I'd been suffering from for longer than I can remember/ Until I found myself doing anything i could to feel alright/ Needle marks covering my arms/ Attempting suicide becoming too much work when all I want to do is block out the hurt/ That's gripping at this chest so bad I'm tearing off my shirt trying to catch my breath/ Unable to ever relax except on the days I just trap myself inside my head/ Where I'm comforted by my delusions of the painful reality left behind/ Psychologically empty/ Leaving the driver seat vacant a desperate solution to the complications I could no longer control on my own/ Spending most nights praying to whoever would listen/ Hoping they'd take away the misery plaguing me mentally/ Persistently leaving me with this depression so I'm anxiously left fighting/ To keep my head above the water afraid of drowning until I'm left in a panic/ Desperately reaching for dry land where I hopefully can get a handle on myself/ While I'm constantly struggling to maintain an unstable mind/ That sometimes makes it so I can't recognize the man i face in the mirror/ Disconnecting me and leaving me wondering if I'm even real/ You told me you would get me help and If I ever wanted us to speak again I had to get treatment/ So I went an completed the program/ All I want to know is why you weren't there to congratulate me on the day I graduated/ An months later I still don't hear from you what made you no longer care about me/ Thought you promised you'd always be there your the only reason I ever drop a tear/ Missing memories I worry we're missing as the years get fewer and fewer/ I love you hope you get to hear it sooner rather than later/ I'm proud to be able to call you Father I just hope this makes its way to you/ Love your son forever/