Ok, ready set go/ I'ma pull this trigger and let my mind explode/ Like a painted car crash that's about to unfold/ These thoughts are told/ Uncontrolled/ Covering these wall like the number twenty three/ Explaining my insanity/ Its the soul carried in me/ This pens writing being the key to unlocking it's locked chest behind my chest/ Tightening without rest to protect what's left/ If only they would try to understand/ That someday's I'm not always alright/ Specially when I'm to tired to fight/ So I'ma give into this depression/ Despite complication/ Hoping to find some satisfaction/ Be it wrong or right/ So I can lay down tonight/ Even if it is on this bed of rhymes/ So many times I've asked why/ Maybe this time I'll be able to bring to light/ What's been missing so long from sight/ So I won't always seem like I'm so impolite/ Late nights alone wanting to die/ When no ones there to answer me/ So I often scream trapped in this misery/ **** chivalry/ I'm worn out and lost/ Tired of my kids always paying the cost/ Why I'm so angry and *******/ Sick of doing the things I'm told I need to do/ Just so I can give my family something new/ Other then a new room to stay in each time we're having to move/ Because I can't talk to people about what it is I'm doing when I"m up till two/ Looking in this mirror I just wish you people knew/ What it is I really do thanks to you/ I'm grateful for all they've given my family/ Why can't they see that when they talk to me/ Maybe after this rhyme I write from my knees/ The clock flashing three/ They'll finally know I'm serious when i say/ I'm sorry/ I'm honestly trying/ Inside I'm dying/ I wish I was lying/ But it's hard to when I'm always crying/ Begging for understanding when I'm hiding/ Silently I'm signing/ This writing is what I'm feeling/ Help is what I'm needing/ Something other then misleading readings/ Cause for the first time this is me truly pleading/ This Colt.45 is problem deleting/ For the desperate human being/ Tired of these eyes bleeding/ No meaning/