Dead not dead
Hiding in the shadows
She is not here
But forever present

Loved ones grieve
Making the most of what is left
Not knowing
No closure
Just empty hearts and full pockets

She wanted them
To have it all
To use her pennies
For brave futures

Sitting in a foreign café
Hoping no one recognises
Her guilt ridden face
Do they know her shady past,
The pain she caused,
Her innate selfishness?

Running away turned out
Not to be the freedom
She longed for
But one long hurt

For everyone