Is it easy to love?
Is it easy to be?
I may never know,
Swallowing that word- till I choke.

Oh to love that way,
So the world
Could not tear me away.
Will I ever live to see that day?

It’s easy to accuse.
To push away
And abuse.
My darling I’m sorry,
This is a life I did not choose.

I would give all I have
To be able to choose you.
To love you.
To need you.
I hate myself,
And that’s all I know,
It’s all I can do.

I do love you.
So it breaks my heart
I can’t take it.
Because I love you.
So deep my flesh can’t take it.

I can take a blade
It can take the scars,
It can take those pills
It can take me tearing it apart.

I pray to God,
I swear to God,
I pray to God to strengthen
My shallow heart
And let me truly love you.