you ask
and ask again if I am okay

and I say I'm fine because saying that I'm not is to hard

...

3 suicide attempts
30 intentional scars
100 ruined relationships

is what it has taken for me to realise I am not fine, I am hurting

I want to be saved
I want to be healed

I need something that makes me want to not let go

...
days blur into weeks
thoughts cloud my head
,
its all to much

I am
overwhelmed
confused
;
beyond repair