i do not love you like simplicity is my end goal under duress I might fall prey to convention, but here my bliss is unencumbered; i look to you, and there are shadows spaces to be overlooked and re-examined little things too precious for a first glance
i do not love you in order to be loved it isn’t in me, to hope for exchange a burden falls, but it isn’t hope i do not carry wishes on my shoulders i do not fall under the weight of expectation if you were to love me, i would be constantly surprised, even if you kissed me a thousand times
if you reached for my hand, i’d jolt in happy astonishment when our skin touched even if my mind grew to know you as home
each touch would set my heart staccato each year would slip by and i’d stare at my hands wondering if i’d been the one charged to hold it
but:
if every time we spoke the world faded, it would be no less than convention i suspend disbelief when you laugh sometimes your questions are darts through me arrows of lost circumspection, i do not love you to hold your heart in my palm
i would let more melancholy soak through me to hold your ear for an hour without fear of faltering i do not love you to give myself up
i love you like i could never say the words only smile at you i know you know i know you know i do like a secret between the two of us and everyone else i’ve ever told, unabashed it’s not hard to see you and wish for potential to turn into kinetics for you and me and this to move it’s almost become routine i put a foot forward and walk i breathe in and back out i reach for a real smile when i see you wrap arms around her waist it’s simple i love you because it makes things brighter