But we sat there also
Didn’t we?
After that first year
In the desert
The worst of my life
The tears could only be softened
By the kernels
That had been touch by
Sun wrinkled
And desperate
Hands

I breathed then
Just for a moment
And waited for the
Next journey
One that would
Ultimately deliver
A darkness
And suffocation
I never could have
Anticipated

We sat in silence
We enjoyed the moments
Of peace

Had you begun to unravel
There
Had I not yet seen your
Fragile heart
Or did I still believe
That I could save you
From yourself
Even then

In this place now
I no longer own the fear
Of your collapse  
As I did
Those 3 years ago
But now
I sit in terror
Alone
And afraid of my own