I don’t belong in this Earth … This life isn't for me … I really don't think so the Lord Jesus Christ was making a statement, That this world is the survival of the fittest… And for me being here only hurts the ones that I care of the ones that I love.. Oow yes LOVE I said it..
I kept asking myself these Questions… Why am I Alive? Do I even belong in this life? Is this what I was born for? What is my role to play in this world?
Well yet I haven't found the answers to all the questions I have, It is starting to make sense though… I am useless, A Basted, if u knw what I mean.
So I've been thinking a lot lately… It is Cristally clear that I don't belong is this EARTH Since I only Hurt the ones that I love Clearly I'm not good at it… So I thought of writing a suicide note, Then again I knew it would hurt those I love Again I thought of Calling them telling them how much of a blessing it was for me to have known them Then again I knew it would still Hurt them I thought of many ways to **** myself to free those I love from hurting but again it won't change the fact that I'm still hurting those I love …
I so wish I was a Fan of God at least he would Have shown me the way… I don't know what to do anymore I am DEAD ALIVE…