I used to wonder why birds sing
why a rainbow appears after it rains
why there can be calm before a storm, and certainly after it.
I used to ask her about it all the time.
and she told me, "There's always duality evident in the universe.
while some things upset the balance, other things restore them.
while some things demonstrate savagery, horror, and dystopia,
others demonstrate harmony, elegance, and divinity."
i've seen horror
had my fair share of savagery
but even after, i'm always holding out for that rainbow.
i'm always awaiting that calm. always listening for those birds.
she used to stroke my hair and tell me that my faith has to overtake my fear.
and so i became faithful.