I LOVE YOU
i love you from a far
i love you from the pictures we took
i love the way we used to be when you upheld the lie

I WANT YOU
i want you near me even though i know we can't
i want you to hold me and make me feel safe again
i want the lie to be the truth

I HATE YOU
i hate you for keeping up your lie
i hate you for how hard i fell for you
i hate you for i cannot get rid of those feelings

I LOATH YOU
i loath you for still wanting to be in my life
i loath you for moving on
i loath you for all the pain you caused

this hurting i feel
is the last piece of you i get to hold close
so i know therefore that i will never get over you

i will never be the one to wake you up with a kiss
i will never know what it would be like if were able to love again
i will never know what kind of life we could have had.

I FORGIVE YOU
i forgive you for leading me on
i forgive you for loving me; for i loved you too
i forgive myself for loving you