My mind shattered
My heart no longer in one piece
was this all worth it
just to get off of my leash
maybe it should have been a secret
a short affair
because how i shattered my life, it is hard to bear
i had it all, a loved one, a healthy mind
and now i am blind
blind for reality
because i was stuck in a fantasy
i gave up my whole life
my sense of well being
i hurt the person i loved so dear
because i would not listen to fear
which in this case could have been my aide
and for not listening i paid
a very big price
i lost everything
i was not wise, i was a fool
in love with someone who used me as a tool
forgetting the unconditional love i already had
if i can find the most suiting word, it's regret
i gave up my whole summer which i could have enjoyed
gave up my health, my honesty, my pride
and now all i can do is hide
hide from the pain
hide from the shame
pretend i am still the person i was
pretend i am still good and pure
but now there is a hole in my soul i can't ignore
i did it all myself, i deserve everything that came my way
and the person i was the past few months, she cannot stay
i despise her dishonesty and lack of morals
she was a witch
and for that, i am forever a *****