I close my eyes
The darkness consumes me
I venture into nothing
Embracing the feeling
Wondering what waits
But I think I know…

All the walls are white
My mind didn’t color them tonight
But this isn’t the hospital
The stairs do spiral
But not because I’m sick

I walk up the contraption
Carefully placing each step
On my weightless legs
Searching for…
Memories a blur…
I’ve reached the top
He’s been waiting
I should have gone to bed early

I needed to be with him
Or was that my intention?
Do I even know this man?
He seemed so familiar
Just a moment ago
He seemed like…

He motions me through the doorway
I forget what was on my mind
His brown eyes are urging me
I clear the threshold

And now I’m outside
The grass radiates green
The sky oozes blue
The colors are so vibrant…
Wasn’t I on the second floor?
Where’d that man go?
I’m always chasing him around
He’s always telling me what to do
Always misleading me

There’s a redundancy in this nightly game
I wish he’d go away
But my mind wants me to remember his face
I turn back towards the door
He thinks he fooled me again
I’ll find him soon…

I walk through the strange meadow
Over the flat terrain
There’s a hill on the horizon
This stays the same
I walk faster
The hill is no closer
So much frustration
I hear his voice calling me over

I turn around
He is there
Wearing a giant grin
He’s won again
At least it’s somewhere beautiful
I’m not dwelling in a nightmare
But as soon as I’m content…

The ground drops out
There is nothing around but dark
I remember seeing his face
Remember him…
I try
And then I weep
A speechless dream
Is all he’ll ever be