Numbers always seem to be random, unknown, and have no meaning, right? No?

Numbers always seem to tie in to everything.

(032902, 041802)

If only the world gave us direct correlations to our future, our fate, our belonging.

When I read those 12 numbers, the numbers seem to have a discrete correlation. They are in fact direct.

Strange how I use numbers to say what I mean.

I guess when you boil it down it comes to this, I didn't think there was be something between us.

I didn't think I would fall for your quirkiness or your comfort that you never once failed to give.

I didn't think that I would promise myself to never take for granted looking into your eyes with all of those flourishing colors that appear different everyday.

I didn't think that I could ever be a horrible person to the one who was my light, never failing to be the gleam that made me want to stay alive.

Here I am.

Entirely vulnerable, throwing myself out here into the unfamiliar.

I'm not prepared for lack of a better term.

I can't comprehend this feeling, my thoughts, and you.
I just want answers, I just want you happy.

Tell me what you need, let me be apart of your life.
What can I do to help?
If I can't help then I understand that.

But you don't tell me anything.
I wish you the best,
I hope you sincerely find yourself in a life that makes you content.
Whether I am there or not.

You deserve a good life,
I want you to be happy.
I want you to feel love.
I want you to know that I endlessly will love you.

Don't wait for me if that's not what you want.
Find what's yours in the confusing webs of correlations.

Fight for what's yours.

Yours Truly.