when i say "i'm tired"
i do not mean
i'm sleepy
i mean
i am completely and utterly exhausted
i mean
that when i think i have nothing left to give the world finds something else to take
i mean
i want to give up, not want exactly but giving up seems almost inevitable at this point
i mean
how do i feel more drained everyday when i thought there was no water left
i mean
i am not okay and i do not want to lie so when you ask me
"how are you doing?"
instead of saying
i'm okay or i'm fine
i say
"i'm tired"