i am trying
to be happy
it might not look like it
but please, trust me
i am trying
it has not been easy
every breath i take
i try not to fall apart
every time i blink
i try not to see the black hole
i can't help but fall into
so when you tell me
i complain a lot
i have to stop myself
from screaming
you cannot see what it is like for me
you cannot see what i fight against
every day
so when you tell to be happy
trust me
i am trying