Why do we remember some moments like a photograph and others only forgotten or through a haze Santa Cruz High School theater we were called in to get our PSAT scores, since there was no internet and it was only paper and I didn't know what the PSAT was or anything and the counselor said this is really not a prediction of your life you are not a loser if you score low and went on and on and I got mine and opened it and I was in the 96th percentile in language and I couldn't believe it so I called my mother on the school payphone I can even remember the wire connecting the phone to the box and she was so blase--not higher? Oh, and that's compared to kids in the expensive prep schools. and I realized that she knew there were expensive prep schools and I wasn't at one but later, I opened the gate to my flute teacher's driveway and it was full of splinters and I remember this so clearly as I touched the gate and thought I am in the 96th percentile despite not going to those expensive prep schools and I felt like I was smart and capable and I could really escape my parents and figure things out