Your love is terminal and has weighed so heavy on my heart

Ever since that bottle of cider we shared was emptied

And let to lie there on the carpet and slip underneath the bed.



Revision: my love.

The weight still tugs at my chest,

And though I do not think of you that often

That long summer of nothingness will always find me

and warm my bones

and remind me of what was lost

in the tangled thistle as we came of age.

And I must concede;

That some things last a long time.



I remember when you refused my kiss

And seeing the restrain you had to pull

To stop yourself from falling into me once again.

The relief on your face as you broke the cycle,

It was plain to see that this was the moment

You would walk into that cowboy sunset,

You would grow up, fall apart

Tie your laces

And leave me on your roadside

Beside the dogs your father sent away

And all those forgotten, broken toys.



I’m fading away by degrees these days,

And I’m falling short of a ghost in the snow

And I feel that even if I could watch you sleep

Just one more time

I would just be the rain upon your window.