I created this image in my mind that was not you I loved it, but this love was not true it was an escape from the emptiness I was feeling inside it was a barrier to hide my true feelings of loneliness and despair the real you and me get along fine when we are together I can feel the sunshine but when we are not you become a different character in my mind and for reality I am blind I want to be together, it's a dream that cannot be because I am messed up again, and unable to see dark thoughts have taken over my brain and I listen to them with no restrain because of this I messed up a love so pure because of this I am completely unsure of who I am and what life is I am lost once again in the jungle in my head unable to express all the things that should be said blurting out all the darkness instead I am not healthy, I am in pain I have a deep sadness inside me that knows no shame it has taken over my whole being, that can be full of joy but is unable now, because my mind is aiming to destroy every meaningful relationship that could be because I can't be me