A loud noise constantly beating loud ,
it feels so close, so fast in my chest
making me uneasy, nauseous ,dizzy
Breathing in and out
just trying to sleep through the night.
Why is it so difficult to fall a sleep , to dream.
how do i put this in words , to describe how this feeling feels.
when they say '' Time heals''
i wonder what they mean
cause as time pass by ,
it hurts even better
cause i never did let go,
never did i let it know ,
never did i let it show ,
the way i feel.
concealed all in
as if i was trying to swallow a ball of fire
the fire that burned my feelings ,
leaving me empty and lost
not knowing what to feel
not knowing who i was
stupid little cold heart,
doesn't want to share feelings
no longer wants to  keep beating
poor little brain , trying to send a message to the cold heart
message '' don't give up yet''.
they won't survive without each other.
poor little  brain and stupid little cold heart,
one needs another to stay alive.
one giving up now ,would end both of them.
As the two fight to give up and to hold on .
i feel disconnected
disconnected from this world
everything feels nothing.