Sitting Watching the rain fall down The soft cushions I sit on absorb me My eyes track the glistening drops that Race down the glass in front of me My breath fogs on the window Looking down on it, it reflects a rainbow
Something that on another day I would find beautiful Any other day
My hand opens and closes still empty My other rests in my hair
The cracked cement darkens with the rain Glistening and reflecting the golden foliage above One large puddle in the middle of the street Holds a sun above treetops On the ground below their trunks
The sun is clear as it often is in the mornings Like a glass of water, cool, crisp and transparent Despite the rain No children run in the streets Puddles left unsplashed One tricycle sits Yellow and red plastic too wet to sit on A shoe floats in a puddle Pink laces fray pink leather fades
The room I sit in is almost silent My heartbeats and a shallow breath This is the loudest room in the house
Diamonds and squares of light Spill farther into the room as the sun rises A gently tipping bucket of stained glass My body is exhausted The calm after a storm Sadness soothing muscles clenched from anger the night before Breathe in Breathe out Steady slow My tears slow Stop And dry
Warm memories Laying in the grass Sun glancing off my freckles What’s not to smile about?
But sitting in a dark room with the lights off Simply because no one is here would need them on But me Not quite as warm
But in the darkness Other senses flourish Music is that much more beautiful Textures have more vibrancy than before So while that dark is a reminder of being alone It’s a way to better experience that moment A better way to see the person who is in the room
You aren’t alone when your with you And that dim light makes you hear your heart beat Feel every fiber of your hair
You are perfect Perfection with flaws Like home cooked food or handmade art
I stand up from those cushions I run my fingers through my unbrushed hair And see that I need to stop looking at that window
I need to stop waiting for something And start doing something