i'm searching for answers
ill willed thoughts spread like cancer
overflowing with negative emotion
my minds on you with devotion

people come and go in my heart
all i do is fear they'll rip it apart
nothing about life is the same
i am pretend, existing with no aim

making promises to myself i cant keep
i've been swimming in a pool too deep
how much longer can i tread water
i cant swim, i'm not an otter

months go by like i'm asleep
overlooking benefits i could reap
i cannot escape this prison
maybe the chance hasn't arisen