I have been mocked each day,
By my minds eye and the pain it displays,
I have been crippled each day a little more,
As all do on me as a person implore,

I have been beaten,
Battered and Bruised,
I have been meek-end,
Manhandled and used,

I have been conditioned to pain,
And conditioned to a mind gone insane,
I have been taught to filter out,
Those thoughts that insecurities at me shout,

I have been trained to maintain a poker face,
Trained to stay ahead at a rapid pace,
I have been disciplined in the art of holding back,
I have been told to of feelings I pretend to lack,

And so I have through years gained,
A heart that to emotion grew estranged,
And so sixteen years tried me undone,
Now almost seventeen and already numb.