I'm not blind
I see what your doing
I always have
Do you know how much it hurts me?
No... you wouldn't
It's not like you ask
Though to ask you'd have to care I'm hurt
How my heart tears up inside with every word
How it hurts so much inside
Sometimes I have to make it hurt outside
But you don't care
And that hurts most of all
So yes I know what your doing
Ur keeping me happy
But you'll disappear next year
How can I blame you
It's not your fault your leaving
That was always your escape right?
you thought I didn't see
you honestly thought I was still so naive
you thought if you could keep me under your thumb
your ***** little secrets would be kept
Because that's what you care about
But your thumb is crushing me
Soon what will be left of me
Nothing.
But I'm not something you care about
So I don't matter
Who would really care if you crushed me?
So does it hurt at all to know
I figured out your little plan
And I pretended not to hoping I was wrong
Hoping I could change your mind
I could be worth your care
But I know it'll never happen
But I'll be never know why
And that's what hurts the most
Knowing I can care about someone
Who is just using me
And I know it but I can't stop
I should tell your secret
I should make you suffer the consequences of your own actions
Finally show you how much wrong you do
Yet I look at you
And I just can't hurt you