if your reading this, than thank you.
the unimaginable feels my head and thoughts  
I'm alone, I'm always alone.  
trying to reach out for friendship and love
But I'm just a suicidal, depressed freak
I've fallen victim to my own critical thinking
Things are strange. very very ******* strange
I have this feeling like a feeling never before
Its far from happiness and hope. its empty and dark
I'm still ok to smile twitch I'm trying, ok?  
where is everyone? Why is no one here?
Alone, nobody to talk to but myself and I scare me
phone calls never answered, same with texts  
All I ever did was care and give a ****
I guess not enough for me.  
not enough for me.
that doesn't matter though. does it? twitch
what is this feeling? Did I do something wrong?
I always **** it up. every time. I'm no good. Or am I?
what is happening? I'm still alone. I just need a friend.  
I can no longer save myself from me.
A simple friend someone just who will listen.
pretend to care! because I longer do.
The feeling twitch its scaring me. where are you?
anyone at all? Is this death? Heaven? Hell?
I'm going under now, please grab my hand.