Its kinda of embarrassing it kills me even more The only two lovers a loving aunt and a lying ***** What is ***? I often wonder why its so highly talked about Whenever I try, the past haunts and taunts they always walk out I'm so full of love, caring, respectful gratitude Does anyone understand the traumatizing magnitude ****** exploitation before I knew what *** was, just another toy A ****** waiting for a pure love and lies quickly and swiftly destroyed Humiliated and abused in every way made to feel like **** I was the man, I was guilty, no way she did it Almost eight years now... Since any kind of romantic relationship I convince myself its ok, though There's days I often question and slip Is it so important that *** thing everyone talks about Or would someone love me and bring rain to this drought