Behold brightest black
A void painted every shade
Absent absolutes
Ask it anything
Answers arbitrary anyway
So choose your own truth
With clearest conscious
No point not when guilt grows grey
Rather a rose tint
Think fondly because…
You can, if you can, can’t you?
What is stopping you?
If she can move on
Why can’t you be free too? From
An unsolvable someone
So sure about that
There has to be a bad guy?
Can’t just be by chance?
So is it preferable
To be an **** with agency
Than lost and adrift
Then fine find the fault
But know this is all folly
False cartography
That which we do in
Only the shadows of two
Together is true
But past and apart
Only echoes to argue
While memories dim
No firm land ahoy
Just room for further drifting
Without map of you
How could you harm her?
Surly the perfect scapegoat
A victimless crime
Won’t it be easy?
So shout into her shadow
But you can’t can you.
Then turn from her face
Be light like air and breathe again
Why pick any truth?
They’re all ethereal
As uncertain as each other
And just as valid
And beyond sharing
Too personal or painful
Then shut up and go
Bother us no more
Can’t abandon someone twice
further fear futile
But tongues bitten
Bridge too beautiful to burn
Even as ashes
Good and bad both there
Immiscible memory
Two of her, apart
No resolution
One you hurt one that hurt you
Like different people
You can’t bring yourself
To end your former future
Can’t settle for free
Still hopeful falsely
Must optimise solve yourself
Because you loved her
Because you were good
More than yourself in her glow
Lesser for her loss
The two sides divide
Further apart every day
Dehumanising
And you started this
By insensitivity
or just ignorance
Which would you rather?
Either way overbearing
When she was honest
About her limits
But you could never not try
To optimize her
People aren’t problems
They’re so much more and you
Know that, so show it
Your inability
To hate her, because you still
Think you can win this
Think there’s words or acts
That change the past, for your gain
Ignoring her wish
Maybe brightest black
Isn’t mystery at all
Just you crystal clear.