I wish i'd smile
I wish i'd not think of myself as an exile
I wish i'd tell the truth
I wish i'd embrace my youth
I wish i'd be vulnerable
I wish 'I'd be more predictable
Because behind my steely eyes
A darkness arises
There's something
I am yearning
I am not nothing
Something people don't bother learning
But deep inside far in my mind
The burden I carry weighs down on my soul
Somewhere inside me, I know I will never feel whole
I will feel the guilt, hurt and headaches
But if try to erase those past mistakes
I can learn to smile
And it might take a while
But I know I can somewhere inside