" Oh if i could only
tell you how much you are
hurting me but you know
what you don't deserve to bring me down
i know what life will bring
you ahead of time so
you just wait to see how
you made me feel
because even though
i want to **** my self
i'm not gonna let you
have the moment of happiness
of me being dead because
that just says i wasn't strong enough
to keep going on in life "