oh Lord I have troubles
lingering 'round,

my thoughts and heart steep
of the recent unbound.

I don't want to hurt her,
but she wants to feel pain.

not in the physical,
but rather the vain.

it's twisting my mind,
my eyes are near tears,

in past times I'd wipe them
with *****, **** & beers.

but these days I have duty,
obligation, and cause.

all things surpassing
my hiding flaws.

I shant dilute feelings
with chemicals or drugs,

but here now I sit,
alone; without hugs.

and it makes it so hard,
knowing what's next.

it's the first time I'll meet,
my recent new 'ex.'