It's funny how we worked so hard to get here It's just me and you now In this dark cozy cabin We both think we know what's going to happen But oh how wrong we are I am outside looking in on myself with you And I can't stop what's happening Believe me If I could stop myself from leaving then I would But I watch myself get into a car While I look back in to see you laying in bed Waiting for me to come back But the car drives off And suddenly I'm back inside my own body Sitting up with my hands tightly on the steering wheel Driving too fast for rain Time is just speeding past us now I look at the clock every few seconds And hours keep passing My eye brows work with confusion And I know I should go back But in my mind is a place where Another girl will be Waiting Working Why am I headed toward her when I have a girl back at the cabin? This I cannot answer But I know the girl back at the cabin will wake up soon And she won't be happy Her heart will break And I can stop it but I won't And I don't know why Because I know the girl I'm after now will only break mine She won't make me happy I think she will But she won't And then the cycle changes I'm no longer in a car But standing bare foot on the warm concrete in just my bathing suit And there's a bunch of people around No one familiar But it doesn't bother me I step in the pool and hold my breath I open my eyes under the water Only to black out No pain or anything Just boom. Unconscious! I wake up drenched with water and sweat and blood Still in my bathing suit I try to sit up but I'm still in shock So I lay here just moving my eyes around I see Scott And a few other people I know He tells me to relax And I ask him what happened He stalls and looks around to the other faces to get approved to tell the story How don't I know what happened? How don't I remember anything? But he begins to tell me He says You got out of the pool Walked over into the restrooms Into a stall and started smoking blunts One after another A kid saw you and beat you senseless And we found you a mess Alone Just passed out on the floor You don't remember that? He asks No! No I don't remember anything after I got into the pool My thoughts to myself are Why can't I control myself? And then the cycle changes again I'm early to a party Mary and her friend are upstairs For some reason me and the two people I'm with don't go upstairs to be with them It's just known to us that we aren't welcomed But we were invited So we stay down stairs and drink We speak in whispers And the only light is the bright moon shining in the windows I find myself very intrigued by one of the girls I came with The other, not so much The girl I like She was my very first crush ever And now she's here with me tonight For some reason she's really into me It takes her a while to warm up But once we're warm I sit next to her and stare at her hands And she speaks to me I don't like my hands Is what she says I look her in the eyes for the first time and ask why She replies You're staring at them And I say You're hands are lovely and so perfect She reaches over to hold my hand And I compliment on how soft her skin is And the touch of her hand on mine Who knew that dreams could hold such an emotion So intense and my bones ache with the desire to kiss her But I don't So we just cuddle on the chair and drink our drinks
The dream i had last night. I wrote this without mentioning the names of the important people involved. Why? Because I'm a coward