My heart races
Nervous.Excited.Anxious...suspicious
Lies to get somewhere you felt was right

Waiting...Looking...checking my phone for a text
"I'm close"..."Im here, where are you"
My eyes searching...scared and alone
I call a friend
I see a similar figure
My heart pounds
..finally...
Two young teenagers walking for a spot for just the two
20 minutes pass.
nothing
30 minutes pass...nothing
He finds a place and the stars greet above us
Laughter fills the darkness

20 minutes pass...
Only laughter is heard, and movement
My adrenaline dies...
Patience...stops
My phone rings as my ride remind me when it will be there
..nothing.

I stop listening to his music
I look into his eyes to try and read whats up

nothing

more time has passed..more music is shared..more opportunities blown

the spark inside of me died..and I put myself in
I asked whats playing in his mind
Why the cold feet
No proper explanation
I get up...he watches me
watches me take his money and put it in his bag and the device to import music to my ears
he asks where his money is and why I packed his belongings
I hug him for the last opportunity

but nothing
I walked off watching the fish under me swim
he calls after me and we sit down looking at the sea...
he sees danger for him and me
my heart wimper
my mind turns into a storm
my cheeks red
the energy I had was just silence and pace
I walked to the car

texts ring my phone
the expected sorry
and the text it doesn't feel right hurt me

I won't look at him..