The repulsion in my mind spreads like disease to my heart
to the place you once occupied.
I am angry at the people who continue to believe in you
accepting your mask as real flesh and blood

I wish I could erase you
from my present, my future
blot out your facade from the words that drip from everyone's mouths.
I feel sick
hearing everyone swallow your lies
knowing the truth
having the darkness from my past cloud the present...

It is almost too much to bear
to know the betrayal  and pain YOU caused
is being rewarded by everyone around

I am disgusted with myself
to crave retribution
to desire almost as much as the new first kiss with a new crush
for you to be punished.
for him to be punished...

my only hope is foolishly placed
in fantasy
in the distraction of others.
fear lurking around every corner
bitter, sharp, slivers digging into my very being...

Is there no justice left in this world
that the twisted and selfish claim the reward
only good should recieve?