The laughs. The tears
     The trouble
        The heartache
Moments of pleasure
         Gone forever
The shattered dignity, wounded pride
             Almost broken  

Gone
      The strong man
             The fighter
                   Weakened
Yearning for home
        Africa

A dream unrealized
           (till now)
Life long ambition, unfulfilled
Life long ambition, by others ignored
Never returned to a country adored

The loss you feel
The pain you feel
The emptiness inside
Like a limb torn off
A giant void.............

That all important person
                     gone
Cant forgive
            The world that killed him
Cant forgive
             The people that let them
Cant forgive
              The drink, drugs, the clubs
               The friends, the boys that used him
The country and the system
        which degraded
               then ignored him  

One morning you wake up ...........fine
       Then suddenly
A sharp nothing, a poignant space
        Something wrong
Something happened the day before
                Then
                      Remember


Then
            A cry
                       Dad
                                Gone
Then the anger
           Followed by enigma
How could you leave me?
How could you give up?
Then blame God
       How could you take him?
        Knowing that i need him.........?

The open wound bandaged with love
              and care
The pain, the loss, the anger
                  the warmth

FATHER and DAUGHTER never closer
                   Always Remembered
Visions of the past
       (Always with me )
Just cant and wont subside.....