My vision is like a kaleidoscope Continually shifting as I awake And peel my face from a cold tile floor. My hands rest on a cold surface Smooth as the glass bottle that put me there. Porcelain. As my vision spins I ease myself to my knees, Remnants from the previous twelve hours Spill from my mouth like pigeons Fleeing from a running child. The metallic taste of blood Lingers on my tongue The color red clings to the color white It seems afraid of what will happen If it lets go. I try to piece together How I got here. Where is it that I am? Why am I where I am? I push myself to my feet The kaleidoscope continues to vex my vision It is then I realize where I am I am in my home. My brain attempts to spark memories from The night before like flint trying to spark A fire. Still that fire refuses to burn. I turn and look to the mirror for guidance But I do not recognize the person I see. This same mirror once showed me A man that looked content A man that looked happy A man that looked clean A man that had something to live for. Now the mirror shows me a man With blood vessels bursting in the whites of his eyes With an unshaven face that could cut a welcoming hand With nothing left under his transparent skin. It is then I remember why I am here Heβs gone He took too much and now Heβs gone. I reach for the remnants Of that smooth bottle upon the counter And as I finish the final drops I slide back to the smooth Cold tile floor The dancing of my vision stops. And darkness takes its place once more.