I’m in the bathroom Scrubbing out a small white plastic trash can Scratched on the outside Yellowed on the inside We’ve both been in this house For 28 years.
Ani DiFranco is singing F*ck You and your untouchable face And I’m thinking about how often I’ve sung along in frustration and kinship Me and my uncanny skill Of making things appear As I think I wish them to be.
I’ve thought so often That he held himself tauntingly close But folded arms Closed eyes And I, ungrateful wretch Unmitigated gall, all that.
Conjuring the warmth of his palm To the tremble in my fingertips Who was hostage? Who was negotiator?
Rinsing the last suds from the bottom I think that sallow dour aged yellow Is comfort. Is a sunrise.