Hey. I saw you cutting yourself in your eyes and shedding pain wet drops that stained your skin leaving red trails of salt marking you within as something else
you had painted your skin a different shade
I can’t cave I heard in your head crashing against the backs of your eyes making you tear up making people stare I wondered I wish I had wondered aloud
You left. and did not come back, found comfort in someone else’s arms not that you knew mine were here, hoping, wanting -until feeling passion so intense it could be felt as pain- to brush away your humiliation, calm your hands from clenching it’s shovel, to fill the hole you’d dug, and smooth your knotted brow
the heated knife of frustration, and hot-blooded fervor was legible in your eyes
as legible as the tears, and the pain
I would. If you had known If you had asked I silently whispered, pleading until my hands were cold and white in the December morning I’m here, I’m here, turn your head, I’ll give you what I can but I should have said my hopes aloud, exposed myself as more than the bystander, exposed myself as someone who wanted to be more in a life that was more important than you thought it was