Restless I rock, back and
forth, back and
forth,
squeezing my knees, shutting my eyes,
so the tears don't fall, I'm breathing hard,
Huh-Ha-Huh-Ha-Huh-Ha-
my heart is beating in my head,
Fingernails digging into my leg.
I'm shaking,
I'm waiting,
for that sound. A door, being slammed.
A voice, being raised.
A glass, being broken.
Back and forth,
back and forth
back and -