I feel as if I don't know where
I am and the most scary part
is I think I lost who I am

instead I have to ask
the people around me what I admire
and what I despise

I've tried to make myself into an anecdote
the world needs more of and
I've become the girl who is more
focused on helping her friends
and strangers
than helping herself

and when it really matters
and when I'm hurting
and when I'm crying
and when I'm down

all I want to do is
hide the
pain