You are just a boy. Even though you think you are a man. You treat females like toys, playing around until you lose interest in them, then throwing them aside as if they are not important.
All work and no love makes you feel tough. If you stick with this course you forever be stuck in a state, this constant rut.
I know people crave eternal youth, but that shouldn't be your fate. Just pointing out; you need to change your ways before it gets to be too late.