When I was 23, upstairs in the house on the busy street I went to bed and had a dream.
I was in my own bed, in my dream and a man came into the room older than me, but not by much he was nice looking, and had a brown beard and hair-
get up- he said- I am a projection here and it takes too much energy for me to stay long
I got out of bed, amazed.
you must learn to put your problems into your dream state and work them out there, he told me and then they will resolve in waking life
and he was gone.
I stripped and remade the bed, repeating his instructions to myself, out loud and telling myself that I could do this, I really could
it was known to me too, that if he was a projection in my world, then very likely I was a projection too, of one sort or another.
this is the most clearly overt the dream people have ever been though they are rarely out of touch-
they come to take me on the Endless Journey night after night and show me things that riddle like poetry and fill up all the following days as I try to see through the vastness of the weaving that is this life this 3-d printout of the spiritual song and find my place in it.
I try, in part, because it is that which I must do and I try, in part, to counter the gnawing groundlessness that eats me alive every morning when I awake, in sadness and fear
what a funny tact to use to try to find grounding in the most groundless and limitless space there is the eternal world of dreams from which everything flows.
it’s all that I know it is the tool set given to me- along with the urge to ask questions to talk to trees and animals to feel the lift and fall of the wind at night and to stand calling, with no sound when the moon shows her face
in that moment that the world calls back you will never hear from me again there won’t be a need I’ll be everywhere, with the dream people making the rounds and taking the likely culprits on a journey that never ends