It's not easy it's sure not one of my best years
In alot of ways it could've been better
I seemed to have not shed not enough tears
I've been doing alot of aching , aching and not enough awakening
This year was supposed to be focusing on me more but once again it can never be just about me ... Why Lord?
Im trapped in a world between wants and needs
But im always seeking to help others why can't I ever get a helping hand ... Please?
The young lady who cries wolf and everyone seems to ignore her
But soon as others need me I make it my duty to help them problem solved ... stress free
I can never be happy or more so should I say satisfied
My world evolves around the feelings and duties of others that I can never be justified
Justified in my own life just the fairness of being there for people when the same should go vice versa
But it can never work that way not even with my own mother
Being seventeen man it is a journey but not in a fun way
Trust me this is life lessons in itself but all I can do is hope for better and pray
Momma always said growing up wasn't going to be easy nor fun
But why my last year before im full adult?
There's still things I need to accomplish and need to get done