I keep writing the spaces between heartbeats, I keep touching the things that aren't real, I keep saying how I'm going to change into something, I keep erasing the lines that I've written before, and when will I write for myself.
it takes skyscrapers filled with polaroids it takes little white lies and telegraphs it takes reflective puddles of gasoline it takes armfuls of daisies and paisley print napkins it takes princes and paupers and slurpees and silver plated bracelets and philosophical books and memories of people sitting on cracked green-brown bus seats it takes things I knew and throws them away; it takes crispy hot nights when cheekbones are sweating and boys who know nothing of what they want filling their hearts up with and euros in pennies and sitting on six clouds of old medications and basements with just too much dust.
it's a matter of time, it's matter of perspective, it's a snapshot hold-back parallel circle of constant irrevocable dimensions of porch swings and merry go rounds undeniably irritatingly provokingly making me sick.
swish swish go cassette tapes I keep within reach I can pull out their insides and stretch out the tape to reach to the moon past the treetops and over the sun and into my head while I sleep. someday I'll tinker with those that dream nothing, and someday I'll write for myself.